fantabous.

Just as litterally everything is going handy-dandy fine.
BAM.
right fucking again.
it hits your.
And you just don't know how to handle the situation.
You can't go to anyone.
Because the only people you want to talk to about this won't care.
There is the select one[s] that do.
But....you just don't know anymore.
You can't handle yourself.
You've been crying all day.
You can't take it anymore.


And now I know I will have the WORST summer of my life.
Thank you.

okay, whoops

Yeah, sorry it's been so long since I've written anything. I've been kind of caught up with stuff. I just got back from OTC for key club. It was fun (: My birthday was BORING. Did nothing:/ Fun, huh? So nothing exciting has happened, really. Boring stuff, really boring stuff. It's kind of amazing to me that litterally NOTHING is happening. Usually I have some personal problems to deal with on my own or whatnot. But NOTHING. I guess it's because I just don't fucking care anymore.

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Currently Listening to: "Newport Living" by Cute Is What We Aim For

Oh dang.

Okay, today, I have a day of rest.
Tomorrow, I have to wake up hecka early to help set up my cousin's wedding. And then wedding. And then concert? The Racontuers.
Sunday, Chelsea's house wiff Brandie and Brenda! We are making a sick ass house(:
Monday is my birthday(:
YAYYY

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Currently listening to: "Pop" by N'SYNC

happyhappyjoyjoy

First off. I fould my camera. I felt like a dumbass when I found it because it was in my Cobra Starship jacket pocket.

And second it was Jelli's birthday. So I went to her party (: It was funnn! We went swiming and we pigged out. And we...uh....danced. Well some people did. lmfao (:

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Currently Listening to: "Jersey" by Mayday Parade

UGH

I hate my life right now.
Everything was going good. I swear it was. I don't think I've ever been that happy in the past 2 years. Then, everythings comes crashing down. Of course it does. Of course it does when I was at my happiest. Of course it does right before my birthday. Of course. When is there a better time to?
Okay, I am seriously a thread close between giving up on this boy. But I can't seem to. I don't know why. That's what usually happens with my crushes. When I realize it's going nowhere...I move on. But somehow I can't seem to move on. But I honestly should. If you knew my situation...you would move on too. But I can't....and it bugs me everyday.
Then I think I lost my camera. I'm pretty sure it's in my bed...that's the last place I remember it being. But it could posibally be in my mom's car. But it's tottally adding stress to me..and I can barely take it.
Now, to the friend problems. Actually I rather not talk about it...so whatever.
Then there's some family problems. Which I can't really talk about.
And oh my so much more...that I can't talk about.
All before my birthday!
Oh, speaking of my birthday....another party I'm NOT having. Another cake I'm NOT having. Another somewhat celebration I'm NOT having. Another present from my family I'm NOT getting.
Don't you think I'm having the most amazing birthday in the world?

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Currently Listening to: "The New" by Interpol

We spies. We slow hands

Prom Night was killer. Brandie and I were like tottally freaking out, screaming at the top of our lungs (well, she was) haha. It was fun. Then it was over. Then it was 10. Curfew. I hate that we have curfews in Vegas. kflsjdfkls; Curfews suck.

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Currently listening to: "Me, You, and My Medication" by Boys Likes Girls

Weekend!

Friday: I sneaked out of the house to see a movie with Kristin and Pete. Kristin wanted me to go. Then later I went with BDAN to see if we can go to the Bamboozle Roadshow thing at the Joint. Well, we got there to late. So it didn't work out too well. Whatev. Hahaha. So we ate (:

Saturday & Sunday: Did absolutely nothing besides eat, text, and go on the computer.

Life is not that exciting.

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Currrently Listening to: "Halo" by Depeche Mode